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ПРИЛОЖЕНИЕ 2
THE PILGRIM’S PROGRESS IN THE SIMILITUDE OF A DREAM
As I walked through the wilderness of this world, I lighted on a certain place where was a Den,[1] and laid me down in that place to sleep; and as I slept, I dreamed a dream. I dreamed, and behold I saw a man clothed with rags, standing in a certain place, with his face from his own house, a book in his hand, and a great burden upon his back. (Isa. LXIV. 6; Luke XIV. 33; PS. XXXVIII. 4; Heb. II. 2.) I looked, and saw him open the book, and read therein: and as he read he wept and trembled; and not being able longer to contain, he brake out with a lamentable cry, saying,[2] «What shall 1 do?» (Acts II. 37; XVI. 30, 31.) In this plight, therefore, he went home and refrained himself as long as he could, that his wife and children should not perceive his distress; but he could not be silent long, because that his trouble increased; wherefore at length he brake his mind to his wife and children; and thus he began to talk to them: «O my dear wife», said he, «and you the children of my bowels, I, your dear friend, am in myself undone by reason of a burden that lieth hard upon me: moreover, I am for certainly informed that this our city[3] will be burned with fire from heaven; in which fearful overthrow, both myself, with thee my wife, and you, my sweet babes, shall miserably come to ruin, except (the which yet[4] I see not) some way of escape may be found, whereby we may be delivered». At this his relations were sore amazed; not for that they believed what he had said to them was true, but because they thought some frenzy distemper had got into his head; therefore, it drawing towards night, and they hoping that sleep might settle his brains, with all haste they got him to bed: but the night was as troublesome to him as the day; wherefore, instead of sleeping, he spent it in sighs and tears. So when the morning was come, they would know how he did; he told them Worse and worse; he also set to talking to them again, but they began to be hardened.[5] They also thought to drive away has distemper by harsh and surly carriages to him: sometimes they would deride, sometimes they would chide, and sometimes they would quite neglect him. Wherefore he began to retire himself to his chamber, to pray for and pity them, and also to condole his own misery. He would also walk solitary in the fields, sometimes leading, and sometimes praying; and thus for some days he spent his time.
«What shall I do to be saved?»
I saw also that he looked this way and that way, as if he would run; yet he stood still, because, as I perceived, he could not tell which way to go. I looked then, and saw a man named Evangelist, coming to him, who asked, «Wherefore dost thou cry?»
able to do the second. (Ezek. XXII, 14).
Then said Evangelist, Why not willing to die, since this life is attended with so many evils? The man answered, Because I fear that this burden that is upon my back will sink me lower than the grave, and I shall fall into Tophet. (Isa. XXX. 33.) And, sir, if I be not fit to go to prison, I am not fit to go to judgment, and from thence to execution; and the thoughts of these things make me cry. Then said Evangelist, If this be thy condition, why standest thou still? He answered, Because I know not whither to go. Then he gave him a parchment roll, and there was written within, «Fly[6] from the wrath to come» (Matt. III. 7). The man, therefore read it, and looking upon Evangelist very carefully, said, Whither must I fly? Then said Evangelist, pointing with his finger over a very wide field, Do you see yonder wicket-gate? (Matt. VII. 13, 14.) The man said, No. Then said the other, Do you see yonder shining light[7]? (Ps. CXIX. 105; 2 Pet. I. 19.) He said, I think I do. Then said Evangelist, Keep that ligth in your eye, and go up directly thereto; so shalt thou see the gate; at which, when thou knockest, it shall be told thee what thou shalt do. So I saw in my dream that the man began to run. Now he had not run far from his own door, but his wife and children, perceiving it, began to cry after him to return; but the man put his fingers in his ears, and ran on, crying, «Life! life! Eternal life!» (Luke XVI. 26.) So he looked not behind him, but fled towards the middle of the plain.[8] (Gen. XIX. 17.)
The neighbours also came out to see him run (Jer. XX. 10); and as he ran some mocked, others threatened, and some cried after him to return; and. among those that did so, there were two that were resolved to fetch him back by force. The name of the one was Obstinate, and the name of the other Pliable. Now by this time the man was got a good distance from them; but, however, they were resolved to pursue him, which they did, and in a little time they overtook him.